i wouldn't classify myself as "politically aware" but i try to formulate opinions. yesterday two of my very good friends and i were out in beautiful korba, heliopolis and we were talking mainly about corruption.
if the judges accept bribes, like judges in general in egypt do, which is a known fact! then what would happen if they really do get their independance as an entity?
if police "people"who are supposed to make sure the "rule of law"is inforced, upon finding a guy rolling a joint in his car would instead join him rather than do what he's supposed to do..where are we heading?
is the problem here in Egypt corruption of the judiciary branch of the government..if they gain independance from the legislative one..where will we be heading?
is it corruption of the government, or is it corruption of the people; the "Egyptian"? are we all habib el adlys and others as parasitic?

and it was sick curiously looking for "good"articles about the judges issue to not find but two? opposing to a zillion pages of "sports"news in al ahram,on friday which about everyone reads! what the hell!! this is frustrating! i wanted ot make it to the protests yesterday but i couldn't make it..and i feel ashamed! but if i had gone would it have made any difference? other than making me feel good about myself? will the government ever notice that this is not what we want? that people actually know they're lying and that more and more people are becoming increaingly politically oriented and this type of pressure is going to be ongoing? that they can't stop people from expressing their pain, theur anger, their feeling opressed!
they thought they would apply their own distorted form of democracy but * surprize surprize* we DO KNOW what democracy is! and it's far from arresting people for stupid reasons, because they, without offending anyone, were expressing themselves! and we're nothing but a presidential monarchy i tell you, i don't mind Gamal Mubarak, but i'm afraid of his son!
anyway...back to studying macroeconomics, reading the newspaper was a waste of time

crash studying

hmm..so I have been ignoring the fact that I actually have stuff to study all semester, and now it's time =s ..behold miracles, my crash studying, if I ever manage to finish what's for me to study, I would forever believe that nothing is impossible..
I have always believe in impossibility- or was it lack of imagination, lack of believing in myself, believing in possibilities?
was i choosing not to have the choice? the option of making things happen?
and sometimes it's not others that you have failed, sometimes it's not others that you are shoked as you listen to them speak. it could be, that you put yourself in a state of shock and shame as you listen to the words come out of your own mouth..
it could be that you fail you.
but I'll change.
Today is not just another day, it's a starting point.

Might not be here tomorrow

yesterday..a very dear teacher..mentor and role model of mine's husband passed away...just like that..so suddenly and unexpectedly.
personally, i've watched my own role model give away to death, his body weak and helpless..having once had a mind so powerful, so full of knowledge and credibility..i watched as his breaths were still,his heartbeats non-existant.
to happen in such an unexpected manner-the shock of it is beyond me...
i fear seperation,and in death is eternal seperation; one to which there is no limit, no booundaries, where time is of no relevance
before it's too late; find everyone you've argued with..with whom you've seperated on not so good terms-even if until tomorrow...get hold of that phone and dail them numbers, if you love someone..don't wait..one minute might be one minute too late just tell them before you die with a secret untold or they do..and you're left with the "what ifs"
go make up with you're mom...your siblings and dad..call your grandmother up; it's been ages..don't expect her to be there for long
call your bestfriend from highschool up, tell them you've missed them
don't wait...just don't

Mai Daoud =)

Mai how can i thank you enough??
such an amazing person, ana amazing friend
it's just that i'm in perfect need of good news