crash studying

hmm..so I have been ignoring the fact that I actually have stuff to study all semester, and now it's time =s ..behold miracles, my crash studying, if I ever manage to finish what's for me to study, I would forever believe that nothing is impossible..
I have always believe in impossibility- or was it lack of imagination, lack of believing in myself, believing in possibilities?
was i choosing not to have the choice? the option of making things happen?
and sometimes it's not others that you have failed, sometimes it's not others that you are shoked as you listen to them speak. it could be, that you put yourself in a state of shock and shame as you listen to the words come out of your own mouth..
it could be that you fail you.
but I'll change.
Today is not just another day, it's a starting point.